{Thursday, March 25, 2004: }

Haha... me now in sch.. doing the stupid JAVA SWING lo!!! Shit la so difficult then going to date due soon!!! :( my shoulder n head so pain now.. nv slp well few days le.. hMmM....i haven paste the bloggers last last few days... tink no nid to paste le la..these few days there r quite alot of tings happen.. but some i forgot le.. i noe i quarrel wif the hu lo.. everytime block block n block me!!! so sad la.. he sae i unreasonable.. paranoid all these.. he noe i easy jealous ma.. he still chat wif my frenz so well.. he sae only gals chat wif him 1st..but he chat wif my frenZ n block me!! summore he tell my frenz so many tings abt himself instead of me...it gifs me a feeling tat he dun respect n treat me well... :( but....i dunno wat to do.. i scaer to lose him.. shld i sae he compromise my unreasonable n paranoid n childish.. i compromise his open to other gals.. muz b more broad minded? n oso tolerect his tempered.. tink it will make a wonderful tingy???!!! :D Loves nid compromises. Love is a vine that grows into our hearts.True love is like a pair of socks you gotta have two and they've gotta match. Tml i nid to hand in the DCN projects oso... so many projects to do..going to tire until siao...no time go out oso.... :( still got another 40mins to finish my java class... then break i going to library watch newsoaoer lolx!! kk.... ends here...>.<"

xuan xuan coloured their world 1:42 PM
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{Wednesday, March 17, 2004: }

hMmM....today too tire to write testi la.. was doing projects all awhile.. so tire la dun care liao tml then do.. week13 n now i m doing to finish.. now only 11 la my leader kia si lo.. sianz.. hackcare la..iytd i haf wrote a extra long post but din manage to post it lo coz my bro close my cable.. i haf save into my old pc le.. tml i'm going to post out worX!!! =p quite interesting ba haha.. I love u for hu u r.. n not for hu i wan u to b ;)

xuan xuan coloured their world 1:26 AM
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{Monday, March 15, 2004: }

Recently abit lazy.. lolx.. ytd doing my DCN projects so i nv write bloggers.. hMmMm... these few days oso nth much happens la.. i spoiled lj S H E cds n i haf to fork out my $$ to buy a new 1 for her.. the s h e black mark from my hands already diminish. wich is a trademarks for i haf go for the signature? so sad la.. :( i die le la.. my class work everyting i dunno.. cham le la!!! :( oh ya.. today the victor saw me but i nv saw him..mayb nex time i meet him ya? today no mood to write testi la.. oh ya.. i saw jing yi n li yun today.. we go lot1 shop shop lolx..hmMMM..so sianz.. ytd finish sum of the DCN projects lo..sae lj webby.. her pics remind me of the past me n her.. the happy moments.. the day i chat wif juntong.. the dayi noe jun hao.. the day we play catchig together.. the happy moments we haf.. but times flies so fast n it actually by pass me for abt 5yrs le.. i noe junhao for tat long le haha... he hf grown up le.. becoming so shuai!!! LOLX... juntong........sumtimes.. misunderstanding will nv cum to the end.. i hope me n him will go back to the past.. where we can c gd frenz.. hMm..gd frenz only ba.. he's so gd :) i haf sum1 in my mind le so hehe.. but the 1 quite boring sia.. everyday can only chat on net... i getting so confused now.. will we can haf future? *bao bao* i muz go eat dinner wif u 1 day!! mayb tis sat or sun.. !! :) ya! decided!!!~~ n oso i wan study hard for my exams n do all my assignment! ya!! LIXUAN jia you oOoOOoO!!!!

xuan xuan coloured their world 11:31 PM
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{Saturday, March 13, 2004: }

so long haven wrote my blogger!!! woOoOo....these few days quite lot of tings happen.. first i start on my sch.. i juz having finish tests.. but going ot haf another 1 soon on week12!!! =.=" hMMMm...then i tink my fren more frenly to me le.. but i sad..coz i feel i living for dunno wat.. my dream is to finish my studies!i haf lots of projects n tests!!! y??? i haf a big goal now.. i wan to b rich juz like wat wy saes? but i dun tink i can get in uni.. even so.. i dun like IT.. i wan to study design or buisness... how?? n i stupid not to study well in sec sch? i feel the impt of having a gd points in o results.. there's not alot of love tis week.. i feel tat i nid frenz more than boyfrenz.. i too stupid to tink he's the best.. really stupid... i wish to haf a freedom life.. a beautiful life with alot of my frenz.. if my frenz is selina n ella i tink tis world is the most wonderful.. a frenz tat can go thru thick n cold wif me.. go to japan wif my frenz.. playing snow n having a wonderful shopping n scenery wif them.. toking our happy times..=) now i noe y there r lots of ppl likes to having idol.. bcoz life in spore r damn bore.. it's all abt study.. no playing time.. so small.. if there's a chance.. i really hope to move out of tis small little tings.. travel around the world..noeing alot of ppl.. ytd.. i go S.H.E signature.. hMmmM...ALOT OF PPL LO!!!i wait quite a long time to get face to face wif them.. they hold hands wif me =) i mean only selina n ella lo.. hebe not beli frenly.. quite dao.. but it's ok..selina hand beli small!!haha.. tink ella the prettiest in the whole grp.. haha.. selina n hebe looks nicer in pic sia.. dunno y.. ella looks prettier in real ppl :D i saw them real ppl not beli pretty.. but now so pretty.. i told myself muz b aim high!! muz b clever n rich!! muz b aimbitious..having my very own journey.. juz like them!!! cool~ luff n jokes n having our own story.. life is wonderful when u haf $$ not the other half.. tats i dun haf boys idol.. i noe y le.. today mayb going out wif jz.. appearance is not the most impt.. the impt is if ur life is exciting n advanture ma.. or else.. u wun feel happy even u r the most shuaiest or prettiest ppl in the world..happiness lies in our own hands.. CIN CHUN SHI NU ReN De ZUI YAo ZoNG DUAN..wO meN yAo Ba wuo Cin Chun Lai Zhuo Wo Men XianG ZHuo de Shi.. zhe Cai shi wo MEN ZUI mEI zUI hAO DE sHEN HUo =) -=my starting journey=-

xuan xuan coloured their world 2:25 PM
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{Tuesday, March 09, 2004: }

today quite an interesting day.. :) i was suppose to go sch at 1310pm but i pon 2 lessons! lolx~ so i go at 1510pm sia.. rain so heavily.. whole day rain n rain.. then i msg the hu he nv reply me.. shit his asshole!! LOLX... haha.. then i went for my 1202 lecture lo.. after tat i meet wei ying n chuning n meiling for lunch.. :) glad to noe them as my frenz sia~ lolx.. so happy when wif them :) then i took sum pictures on the TOPIC aka ZhEn Zi~!! haha... so funny sia!!! we left nyp around 9pm ba.. so tire after reach home.. still raining.. :S tests is tough ya noe?.. but i tink i shld work hard rite now!!! yea~~ all my frenz wanna go university.. i felt i so useless lo... =( i tink me not going uni ba coz i lazy to study de.. haiz...but i wan to b a career woman sia.. wat shld i do???!!! sianz man~~ mayb i'll try my best to study 1st ba.. but i still lub xxx lo.. hehe.. he's the best la.. bao bao!! keke.. hope everybody hu reads my blogger can haf a wonderful grades for ur cuming tests!! Gd Luck to u n me!!! =p

xuan xuan coloured their world 12:54 AM
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{Sunday, March 07, 2004: }

Today another boring day... :s playing gunbound n listening to songs..he forgive me le.. LOLX..but he sae he stress.. i oso sad he stress..dunno y.. he sad i will sad.. he happy i will more happy :D.. but when quarrel i will cry..sumtimes ongi..keke.. nv stOOdy the whole week.. heard my fren kip studying for the test.. i scare.. stress ongi.. =( i noe a boy in my skOOt.. thru irc.. lolx.. mayb going to meet him ba.. haha.. he in friendster quite suave :D his name call victor.. hehe.. dunno real ppl shuai ma..but his real ppl not really my type even he shuai.. i'm not sure.. go sch meet then sae.. hehe.. mayb intro weiying oso!!! hehz... so many tingys dunno how to write..tml go skOOt le..NID TO C MY FRENZ AGAIN!!! so stress.. it's more stress to saw them than having exams lo.. i hope.. REALLY HOPE!! i can find sum frenz in nyp so i no nid to b so bore le :) hooray~~~a lazy day..

xuan xuan coloured their world 11:23 PM

Today.. i'm so sad.. so sad........ words cant describe wat i sae.. i juz feel stress.. today i cant eat sia..tink going to lose alot of appetize soon...... i feel heartbroken.. heart break.. heart pain.. heartache.. juz cant stop losing heart.. i really desperse.. SO SAD!! :....( i dunno y he likes to joke on my frenz.. yet he sae juz wan to make himself luff? i noe i got fault.. but... i feel angry.. i scold him back n we quarrel..there's not fault btw us.. i juz angry wat he says my frenz.. tho he's juz joking.. but i hate it.. so i scold him.. now he angry.. shit! he oso got fault lo.. but i sae sorry le.. he still angry.. :( i sad..shit him!!!! today whole day at home lo... nth to do only watch tv serve net.. kk..gd nitez everybody :)

xuan xuan coloured their world 12:41 AM
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{Saturday, March 06, 2004: }

Today.. i'm so sad.. so sad........ words cant describe wat i sae.. i juz feel stress.. today i cant eat sia..tink going to lose alot of appetize soon...... i feel heartbroken.. heart break.. heart pain.. heartache.. juz cant stop losing heart.. i really desperse.. SO SAD!! :....( i really love him..

xuan xuan coloured their world 12:32 AM
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{Friday, March 05, 2004: }


To love is to share life together
to build special plans just for two
To work side by side
and then smile with pride
As one by one, dreams all come true.

To love is to help and encourage
with smiles and sincere words of praise
To take time to share
to listen and care
In tender, affectionate ways.

To love is to have someone special
one who you can always depend
To be there through the years
sharing laughter and tears
As a partner, a lover, a friend.

To love is to make special memories
of moments you love to recall
Of all the good things
that sharing life brings
Love is the greatest of all.


xuan xuan coloured their world 2:16 PM
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{Thursday, March 04, 2004: }

Today quite an interesting day.. juz now i go play soccer wif jing zi's brothers.. haha.. ming wei n jiajun! =p then i kick the ball into the goal.. cool~~but quite pain!!! Shit the ball i kick high my leg going to break into pieces.. wondering how the soccer players can da han!!! tink their skin is make of METAL~ summore they use their head can kick so high!! i use my leg already bruise red.... :s but i kick quite well la.. :D coz jing zi's brother lose me ya!! ;) but i tink they juz gif me win ongi.. c i gal dun bully me!keke.. then after awhile a group of gang cum n join us then i go play swing wif jing zi le.. we tok abt everyting in the playground..got 1 boy quite shuai but no feeling.. shuai only.. oso cannot eat.. if shuai n talent then COOL~ then tat time i play jing zi play the ball play until going to fall then i kip on luffing until fall to the ground then got a ppol of water i sit on it my shorts wet sia.. :s Oh ya.. today afternoon rain damn heavily.. after raining i go library wif jz.. today she sae she meet alan...but juz frenz ba... she still love the POOOOOOO car yellow.. hahahaha.. oh mine!! jz dun get angry when u c tat.. I M HELPING U TO ADVERTISE LEIZ ;) gif u chances lo.... *wink* hehe... Basically today nutting much else to sae.. hMmM.. oh ya.. i got 2 test to stOOdy.. but lazy.. then got alot of projects!!!!!!!! sianz... recently there's alot of virus sending into my hotmail account..scare kanna dio.. Haiz... tml i really nid to do my projecta le.. waste alot of time day dreaming n all the java tingy i still dunno.. I muz b more sensible le la... hope so~ ~*poOt PoOt*~

xuan xuan coloured their world 11:36 PM
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{Wednesday, March 03, 2004: }

Hmmm... Today's a boring day... Damn bore!! juz having my power music on..Duan le de xuan.. tis song nice la.. but not really the song i love but no choice :( but i like the song...coz is from JAY!!tink my fren having chalet now.. but i nv go..hMm..anyway..dun feel like going oso.. today whole day at home rOt.. so bore~~ but still lazy to study... LOLX.. tml i nid to start searching my project tingy le.. i nid help from my frenZ.. hehe.. ask them help me find sth then i no nid so stress liaoz..lalala..Dunno my library book expiry le ma.. Today no raining.. a windy day.. but so sad at home so sianz.. listening to music.. ytd played gunbound wif jian wen.. haha.. he pro sia~~~ BUT.. i'll try to catch up him tho uh hem.. quite difficult la. :s SO BORE~~~!!! "When love comes so strong there is no right or wrong. Your love is your love."True love nv ends..DUAN LIAO DE XUAN.. RU HE ZAI NEN PU HUI NEH??


The Rose
by Sean

There once was a rose
I found it lying on the ground
I picked it up
And looked deep inside for its beauty

As I held it in my hands
I felt a sting from its thorns
I knew that this flower
Was only protecting its beauty

As I thought about this
I came to an enlightenment
Love is the same way
You protect yourself from hurt

But with every true love
Someone accepts the pain
and continues to nurture and love
For that flower was a gift on earth
As is your love for me

My heart thanks you for your love
And for letting me pass
through your thorns.




xuan xuan coloured their world 11:40 PM
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{Tuesday, March 02, 2004: }

Ytd no time to write diary...now so tire. feel like slping..ZzZzZ..got panda eyes :( i listening mutan ninja turtles!!!HAHAHAHA....funny sia~~ i cant put in music in my blogger!! shit man.. dunno where to download the picture.. i almost turn over the whole webby but still dunno where to download the song into the blogger :S ytd my frenz msg me the project tingy i haven ask her.. :( i feeling tat i'm going to retain sia...dun feel like stOOdy..Life is so boring... a song lyrics quite meaniingful... hehe.. hope every1 love it.. =p


All Out Of Love    Singer: Air Supply
(Graham Russell/Clive Davis)
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I'm lying alone with my head on the phone
Thinking of you till it hurts
I know you hurt too, but what else can we do
Tormented and torn apart
I wish I could carry your smile in my heart
For times when my life feels so low
It would make me believe what tomorrow could bring
When today doesn't really know, doesn't really know

Chorus:
I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong

I want you to come back and carry me home
Away from these long lonely nights
I'm reaching for you, are you feeling it too
Does the feeling seem oh so right
And what would you say if I called on you now
And said that I can't hold on
There's no easy way, it gets harder each day
Please love me or I'll be gone, I'll be gone

Chorus

Oh, what are you thinking of?
What are you thinking of?
Oh, what are you thinking of?
What are you thinking of?

Chorus(3 times)


xuan xuan coloured their world 2:37 PM
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